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A Virtual Time Machine
I find our old home movies to be more effective than the words I've written in conveying the sense of what it was like to live with Bill Mountjoy's narcissistic abuse. These clips are more immersive than photographs and they convey how my everyday life and ordinary activities as a child were soiled with racism, homophobia, sexual objectification, and tearing others down - often behind their back. It's emotional time travel - unstaged, authentic, and shockingly unhinged. No one gave these behaviors a second thought because the toxicity was normalized.
